dim light

The lights in my room feel dim, when I never touched the switch.

Writing about myself feels odd, narcissistic.

I used to feel supported, but their ‘terms of endearment’ feel backhanded.

Those who acted like a shield are now the arrows speeding towards me. 

So I stay in the low lit room, reading fantasy and romance I can get lost in. 

Turning the pages quickly as I wish someone would turn the pages of my life.

Far into the future I hope for more.

The dim glow will explode, into a fluorescent light. 

Eye of the Storm

There is a break in the panic.

A hiccup in the shortness of breath that feels like an escape.

There is satisfaction that comes with reaching the eye of the storm.

Even when you know it’s a mere pause. 

And soon you will be returned to your prior state, with no time to conform.

The action is a guilty pleasure really,

Saving yourself just a moment from doom.

Falling into a momentary daze regardless of what will come soon.

A major chord in a symphony of minors. 

Feeling immune, as if you are the one exception.

As if the world revolves around you.

Then the moment ends…

The panic resumes and instantaneously there is a grab for that second chance of false hope.

But the moment is over, the peace is gone and you’re left alone to cope.

The eye of the storm can only last for so long.

Before trouble reaches you again.

And the pain it carries is twice as strong.

Youthful – Emma Weiss

Do you remember when you were young?

The most important issue was which side of your paper you drew the half shown sun.

Wearing whatever clothes my mom threw in my direction,

Not worried about the constant objectification,

If my shoulders showed,

If I was treated more as an intentional distraction than a human.

If my body would serve to ruin someone’s career,

Because they could not keep their eyes off a child they barely knew for a year.

Living in constant discomfort, unsettling fear.

Simply because I wore the clothes sold to me.

Was my intent lost in translation? Were the societal rules thrown at me unclear?

I remember when I was youthful.

Before I was shown ruthless behavior, and before I craved approval.

Talking about (Taylor’s Version)

As many know at this point Taylor Swift is re-recording and releasing her old music. Fearless is the first album she is set to release on April 9th; She has already released the original lead single “Love Story” and a vault song not featured on the original album named “You All Over Me”. These two songs have set the tone for the concept of Taylor’s Version, leaving fans excited for obvious reasons: The maturity that comes with her current voice on her old music and the release of countless vault songs. 

Personally speaking, Fearless was the album of my childhood. Swift’s “You Belong With Me” was my favorite song for years. Even though I listen to more of her music now then than, “You Belong With Me” keeps a special place in my heart. For many fans there is a full circle moment that will come with the re-recordings and that is why I think beginning her release with Fearless was the right choice. This album is her second oldest, but has many fans’ hearts regardless of its age. The amount of change her voice has gone through since this album is insane, with that it’s clear how much her writing style has changed. Mostly since hearing her newer albums like Folklore and Evermore, comparing her new and old lyrics with the same vocal tone is something I am looking forward to. 

The song on Fearless I am most excited to hear is “The Way I Loved You,” which is currently my third favorite Taylor Swift song. The writing is absolutely beautiful and I think the original vocals are out of this world. The song focuses on the aftermath of a toxic relationship. She is now with a nice guy that does everything right, but she cannot get her mind off of the old relationship. This leaves her feeling nothing. The orchestration of the song leaves the listener feeling for the frustration that comes with being in love with the wrong person, and how one wishes they could choose who they love. The part of “The Way I Loved You” I am looking forward to the most is the bridge of the song, which is something Swift has been known for throughout her career. I just can’t wait to see how she works this section of the song almost thirteen years later. 

One of the most exciting concepts about (Taylor’s Version) are the countless vault songs she has decided to drop with the albums. The first song of these she released was “You All Over Me” featuring Maren Morris. All that I can say is that this song was absolutely amazing. I have listened to it so much since it was released that I am scared to see how much time I spend listening to the album as a whole. It’s clear that this song was written during the fearless era, considering the lyrics, ideas, and old country vibe Swift made present in all of her old music. If this song did anything, it has made fans even more excited of what would come in the future. 

I am very excited to see what Swift will do after the release of Fearless, and with that her other early albums.

Hey!

So this is my first post on my blog. The inspiration to start this came to mind when I was in the car two hours ago. I talk non stop, but have realized writing for an audience that enjoys my rambling would be better.

Music, books, and random commentary are my favorite things to write about so yeah.

I also LOVE and write poetry so some of my pieces may pop up on here sometimes.

Pisces Sun Scorpio Rising- Emma Weiss

Illicit daydreams, creative highs. 

Always in my own world. A universe that is perfect to hide.

Constantly on the brink of tears for absolutely no reason.

So instead of realizing I may have a problem I blame pisces season.

A lot of things make me sulk, 

Only seen when I open up, not common when I cut myself off.

I give glares to those who’ve disappointed me,

Though it was years ago I cannot just let it be.

Initially intimidating, introverted, never starting conversation,

Keeping to myself, as if my motive got lost in translation.

It’s sad really, but I won’t stop preaching “I’m a scorpio rising,”

Because there is no better excuse for my secret pining.

The story arch I dream to have, love interest meets mysterious girl.

Closed off to the world, but they have the key.

Teaching her there is good to see.

Fantasy to the world, but even better because it’s also a fantasy for us.

The perfect story, no fights, only pure love, someone to trust.

Excuse my tangent… because it’s just one of those daydreams again.

Instead of meeting that person here I sit with my paper and pen,

Writing the ideal situation instead of living it out.

Pretending is easy, mostly when I can control the route,

And hope my manifestations will bring me happiness soon.

There I go again, you have to excuse my pisces moon.